Over 70 times
Between 9 weeks and 39 weeks pregnancy, I've had over 70 IVs.
At one point I was throwing up between 5-15 times a day.... 15 lbs.... that's the amount I lost just within my first trimester... 6- the number of the anti-emetics I have been on (I'm currently taking 4) that still don't stop me from fully throwing up. Some days are better than others lately at least!
3- the number of foods I can actually keep down... one of them being a protein shake, one being gluten free bread and one being miso broth .... and the last two I can only consume after taking three different nausea medications at around 11 pm that make me pretty sedated .... -.5
This is my current "weight gain" for this pregnancy.
This number represents how well and how on schedule Asher Sage is measuring in the womb.... HOW INCREDIBLE is that ?!
Despite this war inside my body.... despite my many mental breakdowns during this pregnancy , and despite the total insanity in how little calories I'm able to consume, this baby is healthy...
I've had multiple ultrasounds this pregnancy (more than I'd ever want honestly) due to having so many ER visits and an HG specialist to visit weekly for IVS, and every single one has shown absolutely no concerns for my entire pregnancy.... How am I doing?
How am I feeling?
I am doing the best I can.... and by that, I mean that some days I'm a total mess and other days I'm filled to the brim with love and gratitude.
#hyperemesisgravidarum is a mindfuck of a disease .... But for this baby, and for the visions he's brought me this pregnancy, and for the hole he is filling in my heart after believing I couldn't ever conceive again.... it's all been worth it. Everything I've had to give up and surrender to has and will all be worth it.
Let go let go let go trust trust trust on repeat.
See you soon sweet boy... Current photo at 39/40 weeks, the other two are from my second and first trimesters... it's been a tripppp