I have to tell you something
It's totally dumb and childish but it hurts me so much.
I have a boyfriend for almost 4 month and we know each other since december last year.
I know that just a few days before we met, he broke up with his girlfriend. This girl told me to keep the hands of him and told me a really bad story about him and his exes. I decided to get to know him better and don't believe this girl. I've fallen in love with him and I believe he loves me too, he is really honest with me, cares for me and fights for us, so I do not regret my decision to get into a relationship with him and I find myself falling in love with him more and more. Still, I'm curious about the things with his ex-girlfriends and he already told me a few things about them and their stories and I do believe him. These girls are jealous and want to tear us apart.
A few days ago, one other girl I don't know (I know 2 of his ex-girlfriends) messaged me via instagram. I don't know how she even found me. My boyfriend instantly told me it's one "ex-slut" and blocked her from my profile.
Anyway, I cannot finde piece of mind. I want to find out who she is and so on, but I don't want to and won't ask my bf, cause I'm always acting like I don't care and I don't let anything close to my heart (on the outside). So today, my boyfriend is still asleep, I did a little bit of research and I found one of his ex-girlfriends on Facebook and so many posts from September last year and she still didn't delete them and I saw all the I-love-you's they say to each other and all the things he says to me now and I found out that they lived together and wanted to marry and saw a photo of them together and seeing this really broke my heart into a million pieces
i know it was almost 10 month ago, but I'm so hurt. I know that he really loved her, he told me that and that he was really devastated after the break-up. I'm just so afraid that he is still in love with her, that she's so much better for him and can give him so much more than I ever could
I don't even know how to act when he wakes up. I'm kinda mad and sad, but he didn't do anything wrong...